I saw this great quote on FB today...Brokenness, defeat, failure, fear...let them refine you instead of define you. {Stand still and see the GREAT thing God is about to do before your eyes. I Sam.12:16}. This again made me think of the refining fire that we all are walking through if we are born again christians. You see I know that I have allowed brokenness, defeat, failure and fear define me...There are more times than I would like admit that when I looked in the mirror, all I saw were the broken parts of me. I walked around broken. It wasn't a broken part anyone could see except me.
When I was a little girl (confession time) I would have my mom wrap a pillow case around my arm and then wrap tape around and around and around and around my arm to pretend I had a broken arm. I would walk around all day with this "caste" on my arm. I would pretend that I had broken my arm some way and get all the sympathy a broken arm could get. Then at night I would unwrap the tape and forget about what it was like to have a broken arm. I has a huge imagination and I lived it out.
As I have gotten older and looked back over my life I have realized over the years I learned to wrap my broken parts other ways. I became the life of the party, the funny friend, the caretaker, and the encourager. I would wrap my brokenness away and pretend it didn't matter. I would take all the broken around me to the Great Physician and encourage them to get the help that He so gladly offered them. Watching people get healed, and knowing that the Great Physician wanted to unwrap my brokenness like my loving momma did when I was a little girl was to much for my fear to handle. I was so afraid that if I let the Father unwrap my brokenness He would see I was broken beyond repair.
I really haven't done anything wrong to be ashamed of, it is what I didn't do over the course of my life that I was ashamed of. I would come home from seeing Him set the captives free to my own prison of fear, failure and brokenness.
Until one day I was apologizing once more for all that I was not and He in His loving compasionate way said to me...You are just the way I want you to be...MINE. You my child are a daughter of the King of Kings. That make YOU a princess!
You see, when I allowed the Great Physician to unwrap my brokenness I became healed. I may carry around scars but they do not define me. They show me my past but they do not represent my future.
Many of you that are reading this post are walking around with your brokenness wrapped up and thinking that you don't know how to begin to get healed. Let me encourage you that God has annointed some really great people with Steppingstones Ministries to help you. They will meet you right where you are at and help you to the Great Physician. Here is the web site... www.steppingstones-ministries.com or you can call 903-705-0306 and they will help you get started.
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